FRIDAY 9:07
So how can i start this well , probably my mom left me and my other two sisters while I'm here sitting down writing this my mom is somewhere out there crying thinking if to come back or not ! It all started because my parents got her taxes and they always get half each but I literally don't know what really happened but my dad started calling her names in Spanish , like his going to sew her for stealing his money and stuff......... Then my mom got mad she's a nice person she stayed quiet then my brother started fighting with my sister and I think my sister hit him and he started crying my dad got so mad and hit my brother with the belt twice ! I could see his face the face he always put when he used to hit me ! A sudden fear came rushing to my soul ! Me here sitting down in the same place I was when everything happened hoping for him to stop ! No my mom got really mad and told him not to be hitting him and I know I wanted to make him stop too but I was too scared I always been scared of him and I hope one day I have enough money to leave this house ! Then my mom got I don't know what and  her purse and took my little brother then left ..... I don't know where she went but I hope she comes Back ! It's kinda sad how my big sister can't stop crying and saying she is going to leave to o and then my little sister ignores the whole situation but I know deep down she is as worry as all of us ! But in the other hand my "dad" is watching tv holding the same belt that caused all of this in his hands and talking on he phone with my aunt like if nothing happened . If I were to talk about how I'm feeling right now , words wouldn't explain my pain and depression I feel ! I have a pair of scissors next to me talking to me telling me to cut just how I used to but this time worst , enough to kill myself but there's a voice inside me telling me not to instead I got my brothers tablet and started writing how I feel and think . I don't know if it's going to work but I feel sad I feel like leaving and never coming back . Probably killing my self  would work the best ! Tomorrow I have a college class BUSINESS . And I know that if i cry they would ask me stuff so I'm holding in my tears but they still manage to come rolling down my face ! god have mercy in me and my family I hope you take care of my mom and brother and don't let anything hurt them my lord ! I put there life's In your hands ! Well I'm go to sleep right now and I have a test tomorrow I hope I focus because ima admit we're poor and I really want to be someone in life ! I know school is the only way that would help me get out of poverty and  ima just go to sleep hoping I never wake up and if I do I hope to be in heaven with god !!!